What I learned this month.

I feel like I've learned a lot this month.  Here are some of the highlights:

I learned and realized that I am awesome.  Ha ha for real.  I am finally secure in who I am. I learned that it really doesn't matter if a man is or isn't interested in me.  Because, hey, I'm awesome!  If they can't see it then why bother with them?  I don't know how to say this without sounding arrogant.  I guess I just realized after years of being insecure and letting that insecurity control my life that its not even true.  That I created a world in my head and applied it to all the people around me. 

I feel like I was just released from that.  

God made me beautiful and lovely and he tells me that everyday.  I am a wildflower.
Lessons I learned:
  • I don't need to think, or analyze the behavior of men or any person for that matter.  I just need to be.
  • I'm awesome.  As much as I hate hearing my friends be down on themselves God hates it more when I am down on myself.
  • God is in control of my life and will lead me to the right things in life as long as I submit my life to his control
  • Reading is a good way to control your thoughts
  • Insecurity is only a thing that keeps you from doing things you want to do.  (I don't like things holding me back from what I want or controlling me in any way! Get away from me lies!)

I was reminded of Isaiah 61, that the Lord had given me these verses many years ago.  They are refreshing and reviving.  I feel like this passage is for me, for now, for this year. 

Isaiah 61-  The year of the Lords favor.

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, 
   because the LORD has anointed me 
   to proclaim good news to the poor. 
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, 
   to proclaim freedom for the captives 
   and release from darkness for the prisoners,
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor 
   and the day of vengeance of our God, 
to comfort all who mourn, 
 3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion— 
to bestow on them a crown of beauty 
   instead of ashes, 
the oil of joy 
   instead of mourning, 
and a garment of praise 
   instead of a spirit of despair. 
They will be called oaks of righteousness, 
   a planting of the LORD 
   for the display of his splendor.

 4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
   and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
   that have been devastated for generations.
5 Strangers will shepherd your flocks;
   foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.
6 And you will be called priests of the LORD,
   you will be named ministers of our God.
You will feed on the wealth of nations,
   and in their riches you will boast.
 7 Instead of your shame
   you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
   you will rejoice in your inheritance.
And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
   and everlasting joy will be yours.
 8 “For I, the LORD, love justice; 
   I hate robbery and wrongdoing. 
In my faithfulness I will reward my people 
   and make an everlasting covenant with them. 
9 Their descendants will be known among the nations 
   and their offspring among the peoples. 
All who see them will acknowledge 
   that they are a people the LORD has blessed.”
 10 I delight greatly in the LORD;
   my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
   and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
   and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. 

11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up 
   and a garden causes seeds to grow, 
so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness 
   and praise spring up before all nations.

I love, love love this passage.

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